Hi Want.
I hope you're doing well.
There's something different today; this message will be in English.
You know, I've written this message without translation assistance. Waaa :) Of course, It's a part of my progress. So, i am sorry if some parts of text are hard to understand.
Let's start from November 20th.
Actually, 20th November same with another date, Maybe because I don't celebrate my birthdays :). One of thing that makes the difference is text from you.
Wait, wait, wait not a text, but your voice note.
Honestly, I was surprised when I listened to the voice note. But, I'll explain later.
Now, let me tell you about some things that happened that day.
The first person say "HBD" to me was my ex. She posted a story on Instagram, uploaded an old photo with me (maybe 5 years ago-foto jaman penjajahan). Yeah, She's still a good friend of mine.
One thing you need to know, i reposted her story to create a short of code for you, although i realized you might never have seen that story on my Instagram before it was deleted. Lol. Hahaha
Where were you Want?
Why didn't you see it?
At that time, I thought so because i think you forget that day. Of course it is not problem, but sometimes i wasn't ready for it.
Simpelnya, gara-gara mantan ucapin, ku malah semacam mempertanyakan, lah ini si Wanti kemana, masa sih gak inget, gak seru banget. hahaha.
I am so sorry, if you feel uncomfortable with this pharagraph, but I just want to say it. :)
The story on IG only lasted 3 hours and after that i delete.
At that moment, i felt "okay" if you didn't remember it because i know you usually forget things.
"And then"
At night, there were two messages from you. Omg, you broke my expectation Want. I was surprised by it. That's why, my fourth response is "Ku gak bisa berkata apa-apa sekarang. Teramat kaget, gak berekspektasi soalnya."
Moreover, you have never sent me a voice note in our general conversation.
Now you know why i said that. Initially (jika kau gak bales), i believed this is your way to give me sign "all the room was closed", but maybe not that day. Though, I hope never, actually. hahaha.
So, thank you for remembering. Your message holds hope and belief that everything will be fine. "You can do it, this will pass". OMG that was one of the warmest messages i ever received from you. (-lebay)
Tapi ku mau nanya (tentu kau gak perlu jawab, boleh sih kalo jawabnya dalam hati) ini susah ditulis dalam bahasa inggris, jadi ku switch over language dulu hahaha.
Itu kau rekam vn dimana Want? Mungkin dikamar kali yaa. Soalnya terdengar hening, mungkin pas lagi sepi juga ya.
Apalagi pas kau bilang "...dan udah dari kemarin juga 'aku' inget hari ini" ada jeda senyum sepersekian detik gitu pas kau bilang 'aku'. Di waktu sepersekian detik itu kaya mikir dulu "ini pake 'aku' gpp kan yaa" hahaha
Ku gamau berkomentar lebih banyak soal itu, tapi yang perlu ditekankan adalah penggunaan kata: gue; aku: kau; kamu; dan bahkan saya sekalipun gak akan mengubah apapun Want. :) Jadi tenang weee, saya juga gak akan jadi gimana-gimana. :)
Alright, i think that's enough about that. Let's move to the next messages.
Want, a few weeks ago, my health condition is getting worse, It was the worst situation who is i felt. (Agak lebay sih, tapi kerasanya emng gitu)
It made it hard for me to eat, lose weight (udahmah kurus, makin kurus aja wkwk), I wondered when this situation will end, because this happened for weeks. I took various kinds of medicine, but they didn't show any results. :)
And Alhamdulillah after more less two weeks everything returned to normal.
It is start when i telat makan Want, kemudian beralih ke masalah lambung, panas dalam, dan berujung pada kambuhnya kondisi amandel yang bukan agak lagi tapi sangat membuat ku sulit makan wkwk.
Itu bener bener udah kaya ada batu, duri di dalem tenggorokan, kuping sebelah kanan juga kerasa weh masalahnya, apalagi pas liat "seberapa parah penyakit dengan mengaitkan gejalanya di google", bukannya tenang malah kepikiran wkwk. Itu pokoknya terjadi berurutan, tapi secara fisik (tampak luar) tetep terlihat sehat, tapi dalemnya aja yang bermasalah.
Ku susah jelasin paragraf di atas pake bahasa Inggris, maaf aku mah masih pemula :)
Moreover, i want to tell you about my thesis progress. And the answer is "no progress" because Mr. Odien informed me "he is busy, there is an agenda outside the city" hadeh. :)
During this semester, "bimbingan" has been canceled 5-6 times = 1 bulan setengah.
I haven't contacted the validator because I'm still waiting for Mr. Odien's approval.
However, I'm still preparing my thesis, working on data collection and conducting some data analysis.
I hope everything can be finished according to the limits I have set (that is your birth month- April)
The next message is, "How are you Want"
I want to engage in a conversation, but I'm unsure how to start.
I don't know whether you always think my messages are related to what happened at that moment or not. However, things have changed and one thing you should know, I just miss my friends. Especially you and of course not only you. :)
But Have you read this message, right now? I hope you have.
I'm always curious if you're still interested in reading my messages. Below this post, there's a comment section. I hope you can leave just one word (anything) as a sign."
Oh ya, I almost forgot, pesan ini selesai ku tulis tanggal 16 Desember, it seems like someone's birthday is this month, right? (Kalau ku tidak salah ingat) ku kaya inget satu hal tapi gatau apa yang kuinget, dan belum tentu bener juga. wkwk
Yaudah ku berharap kamu juga keluargamu dalam keadaan sehat Want.
Kamu wisuda bulan Februari ya? Gak sabar melihat hari itu.
See you later, Want.
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